Woke this morning suddenly remembering some photos my friend had taken with my camera at our work's Christmas function, with the man featuring heavily, and....there is a ring on the left hand! He hasn't been wearing it lately, but this has put me back even a few more steps; sadly. But why am I not surprised?
I do not want to revert to my hermit living and "staying alone-whatever" attitude, however I think I might just need to be prepared for it again.....feeling quite sad today. I think if I truly put my mind towards achieving the music, achieving it well, making the extra effort, and trying desperately to be civil, steadfast and simply wait; this is the best option for now. There is a chemistry that cannot be ignored, but I have no right to push, and I need to stop now. My problem is that I go ahead in leaps & bounds at the tiniest suggestion of attraction, attention and desire, before I know what's really involved and who may be on the receiving end. ow many times has this happened to me? More than I can say, but here is someone who is musical, warped AND desirable! Hurry & get back, please, but do enjoy your holiday, & use it please to think carefully about what you're heading for - I have eternal patience, understanding, empathy and need..
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